in the very instance it happened I tried to turn the situation in my favor, it was out of my control. It hurts deep inside of me but I hold on to you, I hold on to us and everything we have. Stepping back and running to my friend or even to myself for time to calm down should have been the very first thing I had done but I cannot take it back only can I learn. Its actually really funny how in the heat of the moment anything but what you want to hear can seem like the end of the world but after calming down and seeing things from a different perspective, or even the same perspective, you realize it was not that drawn out. Its fine. You will be fine. Trust me.

You are everything I could ever want and more and when the time comes what we have will be magnified by the beauty of what we will create.

I love you.